At times the world is too much to bear.
The looky looky eyes that dare to stare.
People thinking your thoughts, believing to know what's not.
Are they just jealous of something you've got?
Can't I just smile a smile and laugh a laugh
without someone wondering what I meant by that.
Can't I just scream a scream and cry a cry
without someone looking over their shoulder as they pass by.
Can't I just live a life and die a death
without someone judging me under their breath.
Oh God give me the strength to keep this fight.
The whispers are loud and are testing my might.
Strangers are watching and making up minds.
The rumors are harsh and are never kind.
At times the world is too much to bear
I pretend I'm not bothered, but really...I care.
- aL 1996
Heart Wrenched
Artist Note: The red line down the chest is the point of entry, where the heart was literally "wrenched", twisted, and sprained during emotional distress. Acrylic on Canvas (15x30 inches)
Daytrader Blues
Artist Note: This piece not only reflects the stock market, but also the emails/emotions that one hesitates and potentially regrets sending/trading. Acrylic on Canvas (30x48 inches)
Mourning Sun
Artist Note: A personified motherly Filipina Flag weeps for her children who struggle to break out from an economically unjust and politically corrupt household. Acrylic on Canvas (15x30 inches)